Ok, so I've been "30" now for 2 weeks and so far this new decade seems to be not too bad. Actually the last few weeks have been great, super busy but really memorable.
Isn't it funny how when we are approaching significant birthdays, we start to think about where we are in life and whether we have reached our goals or have achieved our dreams and I think more often than not we get worried that we're not "there" yet (wherever "there" is!). I suppose I have been thinking like this almost all of this year, 30 seemed like a looming figure :-p, and Ill admit that there are things that I thought I would have done by now. I felt I was getting older, things were changing and I was going to miss out. I was letting worry control my thoughts and worrying steals your joy.
Then a couple of months back, after praying over it all God reminded me in many ways that he is in control, that I just needed to Trust Him and things would be alright. Letting go can be hard, as we love to be in control, but I have been learning a lot about that recently and I am trying hard haha. Trusting and handing over control doesn't mean that you don't feel worried or scared or anything emotional regarding your situation but it means you choose to feel differently. To be joyful even in hard situations, to not get angry and agitated when things don't go your way, and to not live in fear that you will be left alone or not loved. I realised that I wasn't looking at the things I had done, at the blessings in my life and I needed to turn my focus on them because I have been extremely blessed. My family, my friends, my health, the singing opportunities, the touring, my work,where I live, everything I have at my fingertips makes me extremely blessed and I am thankful.
Two significant things happened as well in the last two weeks. The weekend just gone, I spent in Halls Gap with the Melbourne Staff Band. It was my final gig with the band after being with them for 5 1/2 years. It has been a fabulous opportunity singing with them and ministering to a wide range of people. We have travelled all over including Korea, when I first joined, and then the fantastic trip to the UK in 2011 and all the trips throughout Australia. It is time to try something new, and although its a little scary not necessarily knowing what that is, its the right time. I carry so many great memories of the audiences and the members of the band and I will miss you all.
Then two weeks ago my other little sister Olivia got married to her now husband Jake. It was a wonderful day. The weather was perfect, Olivia was beautiful, Jake was not nervous and the bridal party looked pretty good too! Lt Aaron Stobie (my other brother in law) beautifully conducted the wedding and we just all had a fabulous time. I am so proud of Olivia and it was moving to watch her do something with such conviction. It can be hard to see your younger sisters marry before you (I've got both out the way now Lol!) and I'll admit it has got to me a few times but it never stopped me from being there for her 100% and I know that she and Jake will be very happy. I also know that it will happen for me in the right time, I don't have to worry and then my sisters can do everything for me......LOL!! ;-)
So 30's looking pretty good! I know who I am and what I believe. I am blessed abundantly and God has promised great things for my life and so I step into this year and the following years with expectation and hope!
Have a fabulous week!
Bec x
Isn't it funny how when we are approaching significant birthdays, we start to think about where we are in life and whether we have reached our goals or have achieved our dreams and I think more often than not we get worried that we're not "there" yet (wherever "there" is!). I suppose I have been thinking like this almost all of this year, 30 seemed like a looming figure :-p, and Ill admit that there are things that I thought I would have done by now. I felt I was getting older, things were changing and I was going to miss out. I was letting worry control my thoughts and worrying steals your joy.
Then a couple of months back, after praying over it all God reminded me in many ways that he is in control, that I just needed to Trust Him and things would be alright. Letting go can be hard, as we love to be in control, but I have been learning a lot about that recently and I am trying hard haha. Trusting and handing over control doesn't mean that you don't feel worried or scared or anything emotional regarding your situation but it means you choose to feel differently. To be joyful even in hard situations, to not get angry and agitated when things don't go your way, and to not live in fear that you will be left alone or not loved. I realised that I wasn't looking at the things I had done, at the blessings in my life and I needed to turn my focus on them because I have been extremely blessed. My family, my friends, my health, the singing opportunities, the touring, my work,where I live, everything I have at my fingertips makes me extremely blessed and I am thankful.
Two significant things happened as well in the last two weeks. The weekend just gone, I spent in Halls Gap with the Melbourne Staff Band. It was my final gig with the band after being with them for 5 1/2 years. It has been a fabulous opportunity singing with them and ministering to a wide range of people. We have travelled all over including Korea, when I first joined, and then the fantastic trip to the UK in 2011 and all the trips throughout Australia. It is time to try something new, and although its a little scary not necessarily knowing what that is, its the right time. I carry so many great memories of the audiences and the members of the band and I will miss you all.
Then two weeks ago my other little sister Olivia got married to her now husband Jake. It was a wonderful day. The weather was perfect, Olivia was beautiful, Jake was not nervous and the bridal party looked pretty good too! Lt Aaron Stobie (my other brother in law) beautifully conducted the wedding and we just all had a fabulous time. I am so proud of Olivia and it was moving to watch her do something with such conviction. It can be hard to see your younger sisters marry before you (I've got both out the way now Lol!) and I'll admit it has got to me a few times but it never stopped me from being there for her 100% and I know that she and Jake will be very happy. I also know that it will happen for me in the right time, I don't have to worry and then my sisters can do everything for me......LOL!! ;-)Have a fabulous week!
Bec x
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